seem to have forgotten that there is a difference between caring about other people and caring about themselves. 

At some point in life, you begin to realize who really cares, and who is just in it for the ride. 

Look who took over my bed.

It hurts me to see the two sides of people. I don’t mean that a person is two faced, I don’t believe that any person is two faced. What I do mean is people and their emotions. Take the girl you see smiling everyday, you look at her and think that she has no cares in the world and all she is determined to be is happy, and at the time she isn’t faking it, but behind closed doors she is something else. The smile fades and she becomes distraught by the exact opposite emotion. I wish more than anything that these people didn’t have to feel that. I feel almost betrayed by it, but only because I want to make them feel better, I want to make their problems manageable for them and let them know that everything will be alright, but it’s something I can not do if they choose not to share and they have every right not to. EVERYONE goes through hardships and they have to feel all the emotions in the book, and they should, it’s natural. I just wish-wish more than anything, that these people could overcome their state of sadness, because no one deserves to feel like that forever, and everyone should find something in their life to give them meaning and make them smile. 

Something I have always offered to my friends as a comfort is the phrase: “I promise.” “I promise everything will all work out.” This is not because I want them to feel better for the time being but because I honestly believe it. No matter the situation, life always finds a way to go on and it is rare that life takes the turns that one expects it to. More often than not “eventually” stretches out longer than seems bearable but our lives always lead us down a better path. That’s why I can say “I promise” because nothing stays broken and what makes us feel defeated gives us experience to go on to live a wiser and more fulfilling life. 

What I have learned in the past few weeks is that there are two kinds of people. There are those who believe in change and those who don’t. You see, it’s not that those people don’t like change, it’s just that they don’t understand how to break their cycles. For example, there are addicts who recover for different periods of time but they always end up relapsing. These people can promise themselves anything but they can’t break free of the past and this isn’t always a bad thing. Then there are those who are always looking forward, always looking to improve themselves and they can break multiple cycles. These kind of people are successful but many times they may be so blinded by their goals that they miss the beauty in simplicity. I guess what I’m trying to say is that no matter what kind of person we are, we all need balance and to step back once in a while to enjoy the view. 

Have you ever held something so beautiful and dear to you that you find it near impossible to let go? It’s the one thing, the one person, the one moment that makes you feel at peace as your heart beats in harmony with the rest of the world…It’s the thing that reminds you constantly that you are blessed and your life is perfectly set up, just for you to enjoy it. The one thing that you would give away your everything to have, and not just claim it, mean it. That one person, object, moment is what gives you your drive, because no matter what, there will always be the risk to lose it and if it is truly, truly meant to be your passion; you will fight and you will never lose it.